I wrote this poem six months ago when someone pointed out that our first real relationship sets the tone for future relationships…it made me think of my first relationship at the age of 15 which lasted 3 years…and this person sadly lingered for an additional 3 years in my life on and off…I was searching for somewhere to share it and came across this site…I hope it helps someone…
Abuse and lies…no more…I am worth it!
by Luz Barbosa
http://luzestela.tumblr.com/
http://luzestela.tumblr.com/
he tells me not to look that way
he tells me not to dress that way
he tells me not to talk that way
he tells me not to act that way
he smacks me
he tells me I better shut up or else
he tells me I am worthless
he tells me my no’s are meaningless
he doesn’t care that I don’t want to or that I am crying
he tells me he loves me
he tells me I am his and I will always be, that he owns me
he tells me no one will ever love me like he does
he tells me I am stupid
he tells me I am a hoe
he tells me he will kill me
he sucks the life out of me
I finally had enough
I could not continue to live this way
I realized these were all lies
I decided this behavior was unacceptable
I finally got out
I was young
I didn’t know any better
I kept it to myself
I was ashamed
I lived in fear
I refuse to be controlled
I refuse be abused
I refuse to end up dead
I deserve to be safe
I deserve respect
I deserve to be loved
I deserve to be happy
I deserve to be free to be me
I deserve to be treated well
I am worth it!
Poetry on Violence and Healing 